Emotion overload

I've set here for a few days now trying to update this blog but words keep failing for me.  I have been on emotional overload the last week.  I can't seem to stick to one emotion for more than a few minutes and then the next emotion knocks me over.   I knew it would be hard making this big of an adjustment, but I don't think anyone can truly be prepared for the thoughts that come into the mind at time.   Anger, guilt, shame, frustration, joy, hope, sadness..... you name it and I can assure you it comes at least once an hour.  I have yet to come to terms with any of these emotions.  I can say that I no longer have the coping mechanisms that I used to have and have yet to create new ones so the emotions are just running rampant. I tell myself that I need to start physically working through these emotions.  I mean that's been the plan.  I am still struggling with activity though.  That's what one gets for being lazy.  :/   I am just over two weeks post surgery and I feel I should be able to start an exercise routine so tomorrow that is exactly what I am going to do.  I need 1 hour of activity a day. That leaves 23 hours for work, school, family and sleep.  I am hoping that once I start actively exercising some of these emotions will start to go away or at least I won't feel so overloaded and alone.  

On a different note, I am re-cooperating from surgery well. I am finally starting to sleep again and the pain from the incisions are almost gone.  I am still working on eating and drinking my liquid. I have a hard time with getting liquid in.  It's a constant push to take a drink of something. :) I start back to work this week so we shall see how that goes.  I am worried about how I will encompass my dietary requirements into the day. I have two days to develop a plan of action!  I will not be stopping anywhere to "grab" something so I need to plan ahead and be prepared for each day.  

Reading through this, I realize there are quite a few of "I need" in this.  I'm praying that I have the strength and courage to change the "I need" to "I am"!  :)